paranoid city!

even though i've been with Haukur for over a year now... i cant help not feeling paranoid when it comes to his ex-girlfriend..

i always feel a sudden feeling of insecurity whenever her name comes up (not that Haukur ever speaks about her)

probably it's because they were together for 5 years.. Haukur's daughter already thinks of her as her stepmum... both of their families are really close as in they go hunting together and stuff..

and today.. out of nowhere i google-d her name, and found her blog... cant really read what's in it cause it's in foreign language... but i searched for Haukur's name in the blog, but i didnt find anything... chances are, she probably never mentions his name in any of her posts, or.. she could have a nickname for him!

*see what i mean here... am totally unreasonably paranoid*

anyway.. seeing her pictures there (i havent met her at all, so i kinda wonder how she looks like), that she's in a clay-pigeon shooting team.. makes me even more jealous...

i mean, i dont even have any particular hobbies... not part of any teams or anythin... (except my gym, but even in there i'm not a really model member either)

now, i'm just feeling so insecure and paranoid and sick.. and i dont even know why... am i a freak??!!??!

gosh, i need help..